I started this blog in 2011 after surviving a stroke. Since then my focus has changed from recovery and life with teenagers to Movies and Life with Adult Children. The remaining constant is my delusion of Royalty. Thank you for visiting my little realm
Do you ever have one of those days when for no reason what so ever you just start winding down? All of a sudden you can feel your body reacting slower, your interest waning, you simply can no longer connect to what's going on around you? Last week we had an unusual day where everyone was home. We went to lunch at Newk's (thank heavens there isn't one on my side of the bridge), did a little shopping, and then headed to the theatre to see The Internship.
It was barely 30 minutes into the movie and I could feel something changing. It wasn't an abrupt change, as if someone turned a light switch from on to off. Rather it was this sensation that I was slowly tuning out. IT didn't have anything to do with the movie itself, I simply felt myself becoming disconnected from what was going on around me. The best way I can describe this is that it felt as if someone were turning down the dimmer switch of my life.
Now I am not getting morose, as in off means dead or anything that extreme. I simply felt like I was winding down, tuning out, becoming disconnected. I was glad we were at the movies so my family wouldn't notice anything different. Maybe, I thought, I was in desperate need of a nap? Though it really didn't feel like I was tired. It didn't feel like one of my headaches or migraines coming on either.
That evening, well looking back I really can't remember too much. Being a Tuesday it was breakfast for dinner which would have taken minimal effort to pull off. Wednesday was a non-day. I stayed in bed most of the day, every part of my body was exhausted. That feeling unfortunately isn't unfamiliar thanks to my friends Chronic-Fatigue and Fibromyalgia. But I still couldn't shake that weird sensation from the night before.
I shared this experience with Murren during our Thursday session. Her insight always welcome thought maybe it could be weather related. Maybe it is time to revisit my meds. Regardless she saw that it had an effect on my aphasia, which had been barely evident in the last few visits. So we're keeping an eye on things.
Has anyone else ever felt like someone out there is turning down their dimmer switch? I can't believe I'm the only one ~ maybe I need to believe I'm not the only one.